didn't realize that I hadn't posted the latest on Kelly's condition...radiation is over, scans have been run- the Dr.'s like what they see and more tests will be run in a couple of weeks but it all looks like Kelly is cancer free
August 19, 2004
hi
A good friend told me that recently he was concerned for me, that he had feared the recent stress in my life, most notably Kelly’s cancer would cause me to become bitter or disconnected…or worse. I appreciate friends who are honest like that and who understand that those types of things happen.
I’m angry that we have had to go through all the crap related to Kelly’s cancer. It looks like we’ve won the battle with the cancer but the road to recovery hasn’t been quick or as easy as we would like. But I guess that is life.
Still I have hope, still I realize that it could be worse.
8 years ago when we first went through all this cancer stuff, Kelly and I were kids. July she had the surgery, August we got married and September she went through radiation. The next 2 years were very difficult for her medically. They were rough on us relationship wise, being that we were so young, had no money and didn’t know what tomorrow would bring. We got through it and in the end I think that we were better for it. Though it wasn’t anything I ever wanted to re-live. Fast forward 8 years to the present, we are (at least I think we are) a bit more mature and somewhat wiser, we have children and are more established as a couple. The game had changed a bit, more was on the line this time. We had learned many lessons from the first time, there were things we were able to do to help Kelly recover quicker and we knew the areas she would have the most difficulties and could plan around it, I think we overestimated my strength is some areas. I know I didn’t realize how much I depend on Kelly, how much of an anchor she is for me, and how much I need her just for me. Add to it the kids, and I’m pretty much nothing without her.
I love them, they love me- but without Kelly I’m not much more than a big hairy jungle-gym that make peanut butter sandwiches and changes diapers. And while being able to entertain and feed (peanut butter sandwiches only go so far) young ones is good, it falls short of what kids need in a parent. Kelly helps me with that.
I’m so grateful that I still have her, that she is healthy again, but the road we traveled to get here takes its toll.
Thank God for friends who are there to help you.
I’m angry that we have had to go through all the crap related to Kelly’s cancer. It looks like we’ve won the battle with the cancer but the road to recovery hasn’t been quick or as easy as we would like. But I guess that is life.
Still I have hope, still I realize that it could be worse.
8 years ago when we first went through all this cancer stuff, Kelly and I were kids. July she had the surgery, August we got married and September she went through radiation. The next 2 years were very difficult for her medically. They were rough on us relationship wise, being that we were so young, had no money and didn’t know what tomorrow would bring. We got through it and in the end I think that we were better for it. Though it wasn’t anything I ever wanted to re-live. Fast forward 8 years to the present, we are (at least I think we are) a bit more mature and somewhat wiser, we have children and are more established as a couple. The game had changed a bit, more was on the line this time. We had learned many lessons from the first time, there were things we were able to do to help Kelly recover quicker and we knew the areas she would have the most difficulties and could plan around it, I think we overestimated my strength is some areas. I know I didn’t realize how much I depend on Kelly, how much of an anchor she is for me, and how much I need her just for me. Add to it the kids, and I’m pretty much nothing without her.
I love them, they love me- but without Kelly I’m not much more than a big hairy jungle-gym that make peanut butter sandwiches and changes diapers. And while being able to entertain and feed (peanut butter sandwiches only go so far) young ones is good, it falls short of what kids need in a parent. Kelly helps me with that.
I’m so grateful that I still have her, that she is healthy again, but the road we traveled to get here takes its toll.
Thank God for friends who are there to help you.
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