Took Ros to get her stitches taken out, it was a little traumatic at first but she soon settled down, her wound is healing up nicely and it looks like there will be little to no scar, yeah!
Kelly's mom is in physical therapy, it is difficult for her since she is the youngest person there and it is becoming very apparent to her that she's too young to be going through this, had she taken better care of herself she wouldn't be going through this. it is unfortunate.
There is a short list of people that were very involved in my life while I was in high school and lived in the Seattle area that I no longer have any contact with for various reasons, every once in a while I do a little search here, a little checking up with a friend there and I've actually been able to find a couple. Earlier this week, I 'found' one of those people; my high school girlfriend Michelle.
We didn't communicate, rather I saw that she listed herself on the classmates.com site. she listed very little info and since I refuse to pay for the classmates service I will most likely never be able to communicate with Michelle via that channel. the little bit of info she left broke my heart; one word- divorced.
Over the years I've thought about Michelle, said a little prayer for her here and there and had hoped that her life was well. It saddens me to know that she is divorced, in talking to Kelly about it we discussed the fact that to me marriage is such a wonderful thing, the thought of not having Kelly is just horrible and divorce isn't in the vocabulary, I know that divorce causes huge pain and I hate to think that she is living with the reality of that pain. Also because the depth of our relationship, the time we spent together and the acts that we committed with one another- I fell in someway responsible in sending Michelle down the path of divorce. my prayer is that God will hold Michelle close and bring her great joy, Michelle is a wonderful person, we were good friends and she deserves the best.
I ate lunch with a couple of coworkers today, we went for Indian food! yummy. there were 5 of us, I didn't know 2 of them. One guy started trashing religions, God and the passion. I was silent. He gained faith in himself and started pointing out the many flaws of Christianity and the fact that they just blindly believe this myth and that, he explained that he was an atheist and thought it was ridiculous that anyone would believe in anything other than themselves. I don't know if it is the beard or what but I get told a lot that I don't look like a Christian, pretty funny since Jesus had a beard fuzzier than mine. back to the story, someone else at the table asked me (one of the guys who knows me) "which Church do you go to Chris?" I responded "the Hillcrest Church". this guy's eyes got so big. it was a classic moment that gives life to the statement better keep your mouth shut and let everyone think you are a fool than open it and remove all doubt. I was nice, I explained to the guy that the real problem in religious discussions is that people don't respect others beliefs and accept that they could be valid to them. It wasn't the time or place to try to explain to him why I'm a Christian and why I believe in God but his God bashing stopped and we had decent conversations about many topics through the lunch. It will be interesting to see where this goes.
February 26, 2004
February 24, 2004
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February 22, 2004
don't know how I should title this
In the morning I get to wake up early and drive my mom to the airport- her stay here has been interesting.
In some ways she is justified in her frustration, in many others she isn’t, at least I think. I haven’t done the best job that I could in mailing pictures to her, sending thank you cards and showing my appreciation for all that she does. On the other hand, my mom wants to blame Kelly for all those things. She even goes further, I won’t go into it all because it isn’t important here or appropriate, I will say this though, I believe a bunch of it is spiritual. My mom isn’t a Christian and has stated that she never will be. It is difficult to discuss anything of depth with someone who refuses to acknowledge your view or reason even if they don’t agree but just acknowledge that you differ, something that my mom does quite a bit. I will not miss her telling me that I don’t understand something because I haven’t lived as long as her and there is no way that I’ve experienced anything like her in my life. I know she’s older than I am, she’s my mom and all but any time we disagree rather than agree to disagree or have a civil conversation she plays the age card and totally discounts everything I say, and she wonders why I’m not a diehard democrat like her. I love my mom, I love her bunches but she drives me crazy sometimes. I’ve committed to make some changes and work to make her feel more included in my life and the lives of my children since our homes are a couple thousand miles away but I fear that there are lingering issues that will not disappear anytime soon, my prayer is that my mom will come to know Christ as her savior. Unfortunately until there is resolution with certain issues, I will have to continue to be a jackass in her eyes and stand up for my wife (the common target of my mother’s lashing out) and I will continue to be in some ways an ungrateful son. I’m not perfect and I will work on improving the areas I’m wrong in though, just not all the area’s she wants- I will not leave my wife and move back to Seattle- 2 of her top wants.
Outside of my mom being here and all the stuff related to that, this has been a crappy week for hospital stuff, I wrote about Rosalyn’s ER adventure already. Kelly’s mom had another stroke Friday so we are dealing with that, and my Granny got her pathology results back, they removed a lump and 10 lymph nodes, 3 were positive for cancer. They are starting chemo soon- not fun. We are supposed to go visit my Granny and Grandpa in early April, it is going to be their 60th wedding anniversary, my dad’s family is planning a little get together- we hope that Granny will be well and that the cancer or chemo don’t take too much from her.
I can honestly say that right now life is pretty crappy.
Ros’ cut is healing pretty well, I’ve been cleaning it a few times a day and the stitches are coming out Tuesday, once that happens we will start applying vitamin E, hopefully there will be no noticeable scar left, so far so good.
I’m going to bed, I’ve got a bunch of pics to upload, I think I’m going to try for tomorrow when I’m at work, faster connection and I’ll have some time hopefully.
In some ways she is justified in her frustration, in many others she isn’t, at least I think. I haven’t done the best job that I could in mailing pictures to her, sending thank you cards and showing my appreciation for all that she does. On the other hand, my mom wants to blame Kelly for all those things. She even goes further, I won’t go into it all because it isn’t important here or appropriate, I will say this though, I believe a bunch of it is spiritual. My mom isn’t a Christian and has stated that she never will be. It is difficult to discuss anything of depth with someone who refuses to acknowledge your view or reason even if they don’t agree but just acknowledge that you differ, something that my mom does quite a bit. I will not miss her telling me that I don’t understand something because I haven’t lived as long as her and there is no way that I’ve experienced anything like her in my life. I know she’s older than I am, she’s my mom and all but any time we disagree rather than agree to disagree or have a civil conversation she plays the age card and totally discounts everything I say, and she wonders why I’m not a diehard democrat like her. I love my mom, I love her bunches but she drives me crazy sometimes. I’ve committed to make some changes and work to make her feel more included in my life and the lives of my children since our homes are a couple thousand miles away but I fear that there are lingering issues that will not disappear anytime soon, my prayer is that my mom will come to know Christ as her savior. Unfortunately until there is resolution with certain issues, I will have to continue to be a jackass in her eyes and stand up for my wife (the common target of my mother’s lashing out) and I will continue to be in some ways an ungrateful son. I’m not perfect and I will work on improving the areas I’m wrong in though, just not all the area’s she wants- I will not leave my wife and move back to Seattle- 2 of her top wants.
Outside of my mom being here and all the stuff related to that, this has been a crappy week for hospital stuff, I wrote about Rosalyn’s ER adventure already. Kelly’s mom had another stroke Friday so we are dealing with that, and my Granny got her pathology results back, they removed a lump and 10 lymph nodes, 3 were positive for cancer. They are starting chemo soon- not fun. We are supposed to go visit my Granny and Grandpa in early April, it is going to be their 60th wedding anniversary, my dad’s family is planning a little get together- we hope that Granny will be well and that the cancer or chemo don’t take too much from her.
I can honestly say that right now life is pretty crappy.
Ros’ cut is healing pretty well, I’ve been cleaning it a few times a day and the stitches are coming out Tuesday, once that happens we will start applying vitamin E, hopefully there will be no noticeable scar left, so far so good.
I’m going to bed, I’ve got a bunch of pics to upload, I think I’m going to try for tomorrow when I’m at work, faster connection and I’ll have some time hopefully.
February 20, 2004
Yesterday while playing at the park, Rosalyn tripped and fell, at first nothing appeared to be wrong but quickly after I picked her up I noticed blood on my shirt. Apparently when she fell, Ros hit her cheek on the stairs of the playground equipment and it caused a laceration on her cheek just over her cheek bone. It wasn’t fun, we rushed to the ER and were quickly escorted to a room in the back, after x-rays (nothing broken) and some local painkillers they sowed her up, she is such a trooper. Holding her and looking into her eyes as they stitched her up was difficult, she was a bit scared. I never really want to repeat that experience, I fell like a failure as a father in that my job is to protect her from stuff, and I was standing right there when she fell. I know that I couldn’t have known or really prevented it, and that everyone gets hurt, heck I’m covered in scars, it is just this is my little girl and it pains me so much to see her go through stuff like this…after it was all done and she was patched up, the ER tech brought her a popsicle, she loved it. I hope she doesn’t catch on that trips to the ER will get her yummy popsicles. That is all I have time to write currently, if you think about it pray for us, and for my granny (dad’s mom) too, she has breast cancer, they’ve done some surgery and are starting radiation next week. We are suppose to go see her and my grandpa in April for their 60th anniversary.
February 17, 2004
stuff and more
ok where to start?
first an update re: Kelly, her levels are down which is good but they are still higher than we'd like them to be so we have a Q&A appointment with her Dr. on friday we will hopefully know more then but for now things are better.
Work has been hectic, I got my review last week and it was ok- still have some issues with the ole boss but for the most part things are good. I also found out last week that the company did very well and in turn they are sharing the wealth a bit with us, the employees- so I'm getting a decent bonus and with it (ironically) I'm going to start my business and hope that it can replace my current job, we shall see.
My mom is in town, she flew in Saturday night/Sunday Morning- she was suppose to get in at about 1am but a flight got canceled and she had to be rerouted and didn't get here till 5 am. it is nice t o have her here, though there are things that bug me. more on that later-
Sunday night my mom had some of her friends who live in the Dallas area come over for dinner, they are friend of hers from High school (HS for her was in socal) it is interesting to listen to how they all got to the dallas area- I was a bit bothered at first that she was having her friends over for dinner but I knew that it would be somewhat fun but I didn't know that it could turn out so great for me as it did. the dinner turned out to be possibly a very profitable dinner for me and the recent developments in my soon to be business. I was sitting there talking to Mike who is married to one of my mom's friends- we were the only guys there so we talked for most of the night at one point Mike asked "so what do you do Chris?" I told him about cingular then talked about the upcoming biz stuff. then it got very interesting. Mike explained that he was a business consultant, that he had many 'friends' in the world of retail and would be happy to introduce me to them. he then told me about a couple of these 'friends'. wow...wow........WOW! then we talked some more, and it was so amazing, only the future will tell what will come of our little conversation. I also found out through that conversation that the brother of one of my mom's other friends who was there is a VP at sysco in charge of new product development, she gave me his phone # before she left. the night wound down with me getting phone numbers and Mike asking me to give him a call so he could 'set some things up' once the new biz is started. my head was about to explode and Kelly had only heard bits and pieces through the night- when she put it all together my mom was trying to figure out what happened, Kelly looked at her and said "Mike just told your son that he can help make him very rich!"
wealth is not my only or top goal in starting my business but success is, and if in the course of being successful I make more money than I do now, then praise God! Seriously. It is a small world that we live in and it is interesting to see how things work out, the connections we make and how just knowing someone can change everything. I look forward to working with Mike and seeing if/how his ‘friends’ can help me in my business, if nothing else I’m sure I can learn something from them. I figure that at worst next year I’ll still be working in my same job with a garage full of sauce, at best I will be working fulltime with the new business complete with some space for Kelly and the kids to hang out at the warehouse so that while I may have to work strange hours, they will still have access to me and I will be able to spend time with them.
first an update re: Kelly, her levels are down which is good but they are still higher than we'd like them to be so we have a Q&A appointment with her Dr. on friday we will hopefully know more then but for now things are better.
Work has been hectic, I got my review last week and it was ok- still have some issues with the ole boss but for the most part things are good. I also found out last week that the company did very well and in turn they are sharing the wealth a bit with us, the employees- so I'm getting a decent bonus and with it (ironically) I'm going to start my business and hope that it can replace my current job, we shall see.
My mom is in town, she flew in Saturday night/Sunday Morning- she was suppose to get in at about 1am but a flight got canceled and she had to be rerouted and didn't get here till 5 am. it is nice t o have her here, though there are things that bug me. more on that later-
Sunday night my mom had some of her friends who live in the Dallas area come over for dinner, they are friend of hers from High school (HS for her was in socal) it is interesting to listen to how they all got to the dallas area- I was a bit bothered at first that she was having her friends over for dinner but I knew that it would be somewhat fun but I didn't know that it could turn out so great for me as it did. the dinner turned out to be possibly a very profitable dinner for me and the recent developments in my soon to be business. I was sitting there talking to Mike who is married to one of my mom's friends- we were the only guys there so we talked for most of the night at one point Mike asked "so what do you do Chris?" I told him about cingular then talked about the upcoming biz stuff. then it got very interesting. Mike explained that he was a business consultant, that he had many 'friends' in the world of retail and would be happy to introduce me to them. he then told me about a couple of these 'friends'. wow...wow........WOW! then we talked some more, and it was so amazing, only the future will tell what will come of our little conversation. I also found out through that conversation that the brother of one of my mom's other friends who was there is a VP at sysco in charge of new product development, she gave me his phone # before she left. the night wound down with me getting phone numbers and Mike asking me to give him a call so he could 'set some things up' once the new biz is started. my head was about to explode and Kelly had only heard bits and pieces through the night- when she put it all together my mom was trying to figure out what happened, Kelly looked at her and said "Mike just told your son that he can help make him very rich!"
wealth is not my only or top goal in starting my business but success is, and if in the course of being successful I make more money than I do now, then praise God! Seriously. It is a small world that we live in and it is interesting to see how things work out, the connections we make and how just knowing someone can change everything. I look forward to working with Mike and seeing if/how his ‘friends’ can help me in my business, if nothing else I’m sure I can learn something from them. I figure that at worst next year I’ll still be working in my same job with a garage full of sauce, at best I will be working fulltime with the new business complete with some space for Kelly and the kids to hang out at the warehouse so that while I may have to work strange hours, they will still have access to me and I will be able to spend time with them.
February 10, 2004
wasting time
so here i am at work, but I'm not working. though I'd like to work, but I can't- you see I am in a training session at a remote office, I'll be here all week in the mornings, but I'm not getting trained, I'm here to provide support if there are problems and to take down suggestions for our development group, so I'm working sort of, but for the last 2 days I've spent most of the time just sitting here doing nothing.
it isn't a complete loss- I did notice that my entry from Sunday night, though I did save it, I didn't publish it so I'm going to publish it when I publish this. I'm bored and could probably be more productive at starbucks. oh well. hope your day is going better. hey, there is a problem I get to go fix- joy!
it isn't a complete loss- I did notice that my entry from Sunday night, though I did save it, I didn't publish it so I'm going to publish it when I publish this. I'm bored and could probably be more productive at starbucks. oh well. hope your day is going better. hey, there is a problem I get to go fix- joy!
February 8, 2004
midnight drives and I know now why I was so fat
yesterday Kelly and I decided to take a quick trip to see some friends in the houston area. Our friends Mark and Lisa had a baby back in December, their second, and we hadn't had the chance to see them or meet their youngest son Sammy yet. we took off about 9pm and arrived in Conroe, our destination about 1am. I used to be able to drive for hours through the night without getting tired. that was then, this is now- we stopped on the way down and I picked up one of these:
SoBe Adrenaline Rush- I don't partake in consuming energy drinks often, but when I do they certainly make me zoom- I don't see how people can drink those things on a regular basis.
So we got to Mark and Lisa’s about 1, we stayed up till about 4- that would have been OK except the kids, all 4 of them wanted to get up at 6. rough morning, we took shifts allowing others to sleep a bit more. I was nice seeing our friends, it was nice to meet Sammy, and it was great that Ros got to play with Nate, Mark and Lisa's son who is 9 months older than Ros. Sammy is so cute. He and Noah seem to have the same laidback personality type and I see them being great friends- Nate and Ros have always loved each other and it was nice that they could spend some time playing, even if he did knock her down a couple of times and I had to step in and be her protective daddy.
Kelly and I lived in Conroe for many years, I think that we kept the restaurant industry there alive. before we left on our short trek home we ate lunch at one of our favorite mexican places with our friends. we ate till we were stuffed, then we had more. we don't normally eat like that now, looking back I'm surprised that we weren't fatter than we were. wow. it is late, I'm tired and have to head to bed, I have an 8 'clock meeting in the morning.
oh, any guesses on what I had at the mexican place? I had a stuffed avocados, surprising i know- i ordered it more because I had it a couple of years ago and couldn't remember how they made it. oh my, imagine taking an avocado, stuffing it with some fajita chicken, then closing it back up and coating it with a bunch of cheese, put a crust on it and fry the bad boy, that is what I had and I don't think I'm going to eat for a week now.
SoBe Adrenaline Rush- I don't partake in consuming energy drinks often, but when I do they certainly make me zoom- I don't see how people can drink those things on a regular basis.
So we got to Mark and Lisa’s about 1, we stayed up till about 4- that would have been OK except the kids, all 4 of them wanted to get up at 6. rough morning, we took shifts allowing others to sleep a bit more. I was nice seeing our friends, it was nice to meet Sammy, and it was great that Ros got to play with Nate, Mark and Lisa's son who is 9 months older than Ros. Sammy is so cute. He and Noah seem to have the same laidback personality type and I see them being great friends- Nate and Ros have always loved each other and it was nice that they could spend some time playing, even if he did knock her down a couple of times and I had to step in and be her protective daddy.
Kelly and I lived in Conroe for many years, I think that we kept the restaurant industry there alive. before we left on our short trek home we ate lunch at one of our favorite mexican places with our friends. we ate till we were stuffed, then we had more. we don't normally eat like that now, looking back I'm surprised that we weren't fatter than we were. wow. it is late, I'm tired and have to head to bed, I have an 8 'clock meeting in the morning.
oh, any guesses on what I had at the mexican place? I had a stuffed avocados, surprising i know- i ordered it more because I had it a couple of years ago and couldn't remember how they made it. oh my, imagine taking an avocado, stuffing it with some fajita chicken, then closing it back up and coating it with a bunch of cheese, put a crust on it and fry the bad boy, that is what I had and I don't think I'm going to eat for a week now.
February 5, 2004
life goes on
so i sit here waiting for Kelly to pick me up, she has a lab appointment today, the results of the lab work will determine our next step in this whole process and will indicate how likely it is that she has cancer. I'm not excited but I want to get this done. God has been so good to us this last week, we have been able to look at everything with a clear head and we have plans in place should she need to undergo treatment. we won't get the results back till next week, so for now we will just wait.
the 6 avocados have been eaten, they were very yummy! I figure that we have averaged about 10 a week in our hose since sometime in December. have I mentioned that we like avocados? ;o)
the 6 avocados have been eaten, they were very yummy! I figure that we have averaged about 10 a week in our hose since sometime in December. have I mentioned that we like avocados? ;o)
February 2, 2004
monday, monday...
am I the only person who didn't watch the superbowl this weekend? PBS had a marathon of technogames, kind of a british robot wars, only better. I knew that the technogames were better than any superbowl but I am even more glad that I missed out on more of the same hype/crap we ingest as consumers.
Kelly is going to get some more blood work done thursday, from there we should have a better idea as to what all is going on and will make decisions for the next step.
with that I'm packing up and heading home to my lovely wife.
remember the only thing in heaven that is man made is the scars on Jesus.
Kelly is going to get some more blood work done thursday, from there we should have a better idea as to what all is going on and will make decisions for the next step.
with that I'm packing up and heading home to my lovely wife.
remember the only thing in heaven that is man made is the scars on Jesus.
February 1, 2004
knife fights and bananna bread
My 3-day weekend is ending, it has been fun, adventure filled and I'm tired. Today, 16 years ago at around 8:30pm pacific standard time my step brother Jeremy decided, while he and I were wrestling in the kitchen, to see what happens when you put a knife in someone's back. it hurt a bunch and I was taken to the ER where they decided after a couple of hours that no lungs were punctured. a lot has changed in my life in the last 16 years most for the better- I haven't been stabbed since and I haven't included Jeremy in my life.
As I sat tonight pondering my life and the crap I've been through I come back to the same thing- with God I can go through anything. and that to live life to the fullest I must life life one day at a time, today I have a healthy wife and kids, tomorrow may or may not be the same but we will cross that bridge when we get there.
so that I don't fail my title, I will now discuss my banana bread- yesterday as Kelly caught up on some sleep and the kids were watching baby Einstein (crack for kids, only good for them!) we had some old bananas and I was in the mood to bake something, about an hour and a half later I was pulling two perfect loaves of banana bread out of the oven. pure joy. a couple of things that stand out though, Betty said (betty crocker that is) that if I had 8x4 loaf pans that I should use 2 but if I had 9x5 then I should only use 1, well that just doesn't make sense and even though I have the larger pan. I noticed this morning that we have some more bananas that are getting old, looks like I’ll be making some more bread soon.
One last thing before I head to bed, avocados were 3 for a dollar, Kelly got 6 tonight. I love avacados
As I sat tonight pondering my life and the crap I've been through I come back to the same thing- with God I can go through anything. and that to live life to the fullest I must life life one day at a time, today I have a healthy wife and kids, tomorrow may or may not be the same but we will cross that bridge when we get there.
so that I don't fail my title, I will now discuss my banana bread- yesterday as Kelly caught up on some sleep and the kids were watching baby Einstein (crack for kids, only good for them!) we had some old bananas and I was in the mood to bake something, about an hour and a half later I was pulling two perfect loaves of banana bread out of the oven. pure joy. a couple of things that stand out though, Betty said (betty crocker that is) that if I had 8x4 loaf pans that I should use 2 but if I had 9x5 then I should only use 1, well that just doesn't make sense and even though I have the larger pan. I noticed this morning that we have some more bananas that are getting old, looks like I’ll be making some more bread soon.
One last thing before I head to bed, avocados were 3 for a dollar, Kelly got 6 tonight. I love avacados
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